i’m sorry, mummy.

everything have got it’s pros & cons. be it if its the thing what you wanted to happen most, it will still have it’s negative side.
8 to 12 months to sell the flat after everything’s settled, 2 room or 3 room flat?
sis talked to me about this, and of course, i want a 3 room flat. but talking in terms of long run, mom would have difficulty paying for the 3 room flat.  but if she were to buy a 2 room flat, i won’t have that much of a.. personal space? something really strike me when sis told me that mom actually said that she can buy a 2 room flat and lives all by herself while me, can stay @ my sis’s place.

looking back, i was not a filial daughter. all along, i can see and i know she had been trying her best to give me everything i want. i feel very blessed actually, at this age, i see many of my other friends having to pay their handphone bill by themselves, buy their new year clothing by themselves, and their pocket money might even be lower than mine. she buy stuffs for me that she sometimes won’t even be so willing to buy for herself but yet, she would just buy it for me knowing that i like it. although i don’t go around shouting @ my mom like some really unfilial child, but i have to admit that sometimes, i really talked to her quite rudely or even hurt her pride? but after each time, the guilt would overwhelmed me so much that i really feel like apologizing to her but i really don’t know how to do it. i still remb, when i was young, i would call her and actually apologized to her for my rude behavior. as i grew older, i would send her a text msg. as for now, i really don’t know how to express myself in front of her.

i’m sorry.