if only this picture is not blurrrrry. (patrick have lousy camera skill.) anyw, last minute steamboat session @ zac’s place.
thanks zac for organising it, the food were tasty!

maybe, i shuld really be contented w my life. i’ve a bunch of fav girls who will be thr for each other no matter what, i’ve 2 brothers to dote on me, i’ve no-matter-he-will-be-thr big brother (xiangkuan), i’ve a very caring piece of wood, i’ve a bestf who will be asking me to sleep early & always ensure that i reach home safely (and i really wish things will never change for you, bestf)………….

i’m sorry if i’d hurt anyone of you w my attitude/actions or whatever, but deep down, i do cherish every single one of you.

lastly, i still have a very irritating but extremely caring (fill-in-the-blank). thanks for being thr all these while.
you know i do cherish you too. your words last night, i did get them clearly but all i need is time, time & more time. i know i’m indecisive, or rather can’t bear to change anything but……… yeah, i need time.
but still, thank you.

too many things happened too quickly that idk what to do.
maybe, this is the best time for me to solve everything now now now.
solve things that shuld be solved long ago.. i don’t like it when things are left unsolved.
maybe i shuld really solve them now.
but i’m still.. lost.

first day of cny was @ kukup (m’sia), $2000 worth of fire crackers + fireworks just bomb off like that.
like heart pain only? hahahahahaha. but the food there were awesome although all of us feel like some pigs.
every 3 hours there’ll be food served leh! shitzx. i miss the food there!

door-less van rofl.

$2000 = avg 100 pieces of clothing!!!!!!

cny day 2 was the same old routine but except that we couldn’t make it to laoyi’s place because of the jam.
so, went over to grandma’s place then the adults play mj then i was like rotting there until some hero came over to look for me.

cny day 3 was same same same same too. went over to sis’s place tog with her friends.
at night went over to dtp’s place for mj, lose lose lose also. ;(

cny day 4 fav girls came over for steamboat. love love love them because they’re wonderful.
the steamboat was very nice, i like! but still, lose lose lose money agn. $_$

cny day 5 was stats test. i was late late late and i almost hand up a blank paper. :/
thanks 3rd uncle for fetching me to school,
after the paper, went over to leon’s place with that bunch of boys. the steamy was nice too! thanks bro for hosting this.

i just noticed mr patrick tan was not in the picture. HAHAHAHAHA.
go lah, go meet her mre la! #$%^&*(

went over to dtp’s place agn, lose lose lose agn.
wanted to play mj till morng while waiting for first bus to get home.
but headache + giddiness kills.

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i don’t know what do i want exactly @ this point of time,
i hope i didn’t confuse you much.

I’ve never understood the reasoning for someone to move on from a relationship. It’s not like you are really going to move on – you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that one person every single day until it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, and then you have to remind yourself again.

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why must it be @ this point of time,
i should be w my lecture notes now.
or rather..  physically, i am. but mentally, i think i’m not.
but somehow, i think i did a great job today for sending that text out.
on the other, i think i’m a loser because i’d been hoping for a reply from you.

people that i expected them to leave and never come back anymore, came back.
and that makes me wonder.. what’s next? is that cycle going to be repeating again?
i know i’ve the ultimate decision after all.

i need to talk to cousin love,
meet up soon okay? many things to fill you in, call me up soon.

enough of those stuffs, currently i need mac wing all wings.
grace sis is @ mac but i’m super lazy to go over.
but i’m happy that i somehow figured out how to calculate worldscale ALL BY MYSELFFF!
i’m a smart girl, hor?

every week, there’ll bound to be one day whereby i’ll be very very happy!
this week, it will be tmr, because its favouritez day! <3
come to think of it, it’s really funny how did i actually ended up w this favouritez bunch of girls. of cos, the very obvious reason is thanks to grace sis. thanks to her that i can get to know this bunch of awesome girls! i still remb the very first time i met dtp, it was when grace sis brought me to her workplace, and i remb very clearly that i think she looks very very very fierce. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
but overall, she’s really someone nice to talk to, or rather some of the things we think are somehow similar?
now, she’s happily attached to mr kiehls. HAHAHAHA. (got many many benefit for me also.)
never neglect favouritez girls ohkay you! <3

i think the very first time i met jess that big bully was when we go to her place for mj session? and the very first time playing mj w her almost made me go crazy already because she kept on shouting ‘pong’ for no reason and i believed her again & again. but till now, she still hasn’t change, she’s still that big big bully.* big sigh.

i actually forgot when’s the first time i met catherine………………. if i’m not wrong shuld be when we’re playing mj! she’s a very nice friend i would say, she would be there to listen and entertain you too! hahahahahaha. she really got the mummy’s feel. HAHAHAA. she’s now happily attached too, gives you my blessing! <3

lastly, favourite sis! its awesome to be able to be so close to a friend after knowing her for years. conflicts we may have, misunderstand that are bound to happen, but i believe both of us will still be as close at the end of the day! because deep down, i really care and will be here always!

(millions years ago, i just found this in my lappy. damn funny!)

♥

everything have got it’s pros & cons. be it if its the thing what you wanted to happen most, it will still have it’s negative side.
8 to 12 months to sell the flat after everything’s settled, 2 room or 3 room flat?
sis talked to me about this, and of course, i want a 3 room flat. but talking in terms of long run, mom would have difficulty paying for the 3 room flat.  but if she were to buy a 2 room flat, i won’t have that much of a.. personal space? something really strike me when sis told me that mom actually said that she can buy a 2 room flat and lives all by herself while me, can stay @ my sis’s place.

looking back, i was not a filial daughter. all along, i can see and i know she had been trying her best to give me everything i want. i feel very blessed actually, at this age, i see many of my other friends having to pay their handphone bill by themselves, buy their new year clothing by themselves, and their pocket money might even be lower than mine. she buy stuffs for me that she sometimes won’t even be so willing to buy for herself but yet, she would just buy it for me knowing that i like it. although i don’t go around shouting @ my mom like some really unfilial child, but i have to admit that sometimes, i really talked to her quite rudely or even hurt her pride? but after each time, the guilt would overwhelmed me so much that i really feel like apologizing to her but i really don’t know how to do it. i still remb, when i was young, i would call her and actually apologized to her for my rude behavior. as i grew older, i would send her a text msg. as for now, i really don’t know how to express myself in front of her.

i’m sorry.